I have a habit of having internal conversations with people. (Okay, that makes me sound crazier than I am, so let me explain before you call the men in white coats to take me away!)
To make a long story short, I have a part-time job working for someone who wants perfection. If the slightest thing is off, he tends to overreact/get mad/etc. He has this idea in his head and if it doesn’t match, he’s not happy. Needless to say, he’s NEVER happy. With anyone. This isn’t a rant about him, though. It put me in this mood and made me think about all the things I wish I could say to him but can’t/won’t. And then that got me to thinking about what he’s looking for: perfection.
Would I want to be perfect? If someone said, “Here, I have a spell that will make you perfect.” Would I say “Okay, sign me up!” and wave my hand around? No. I don’t want to be ‘perfect’. I don’t try for it and never have. I’m just Lanie. I’m the girl with the weird hick or yankee accent (depending on where I live at the time). I’m not perfect. And I don’t want to be.
Even in writing. Actually, especially in writing. If you’re perfect, there’s nothing to learn. If you reach perfect, then there’s nothing to gain. I want to learn. I want to gain. I want to keep striving to be better. I want to be one of those authors who readers say “This book was better than the last” every time. Will it happen? Probably not, but I can dream right? (That’s another post entirely.)
So, if you ever happen across my books when I publish, I hope you realize that I’m not trying to be something I’ll never be. I’m not trying to be perfect. I’m flawed and I make mistakes. But, I will promise to try harder each time. I promise to try to learn from what I write, from what I do, and strive to make your next reading experience even better. Because I want to grow–as a person, and as a writer.
What about you? Is perfection something you’d like to achieve? If someone came up to you and said they could make you perfect, would you let them?