Who Am I?

I’ve been thinking a lot about what kind of writer I want to be. And I say ‘writer’ because I’m not sure I consider myself an author yet. I’ve set an arbitrary number of sales I want to meet before I consider myself an author (and when I reach it, I’ll be sure to post about it and tell you what the number was). But back to my point.

I love books and I have so much respect for the men and women whose books I’ve read. So far, I’ve yet to meet one of my favorite authors. In part because I’ve never had the chance to meet them, and in part because I’m not sure I’d try if I could. I’ve touched on this before, of not meeting them out of fear. I’m afraid they won’t live up to the expectations I have of them and I’m afraid that it’d ruin the story for me.

There are so many authors I know of who don’t seem nice and I can’t read their books. (Call me weird, I don’t mind.) I love reading for the same reason I write. I need that magic. I love being able to share new worlds and characters. And as much as I’d love to be known as a great writer/author, I want to be known for being a nice writer/author.

And that’s been on my mind. I’m not perfect. I’m not always as nice as I could be, or as diplomatic or understanding. I do try, but I’m human, I make mistakes. Even so, if I make a mistake, if I say something mean (even if it wasn’t my intent, because I fumble with words a lot and say things poorly), I’ll be the first to apologize for it. But on the whole, I want to be remembered for being nice.

In five, ten, or twenty years, I want people to remember me not just as a writer, but as a nice person. I’d rather have 100 people remember me as an okay writer but a great person, than to have 1,000 people remember me as a great writer and a…nope, that’s it–just a great writer.

What about you? If you’re an author, do you want to be remembered for being great or being nice? And if you’re a reader, would you rather remember a nice author, or a great author?

**Please note: I am in no way saying I’m a great writer. I think I’m a good writer, but I know I have more to learn and I hope to improve.

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